pretty sparkling things. a little home filled with gold and sun kissed atumn leaves. bowls with shiny fish and a wall of pictures. smooth stones from waves washed over and over. ceilings painted clear blue and a room with footprints on the floor. 

a glass wall and a lady bug that lives in the windowsill. a big shelf of books and a big white room with a piano. 

I’m always a step behind you. I did things I promised my parents I wouldn’t do. I made bad decisions and was completely stupid. I changed because I tried to be what you wanted. 

and then you changed your mind.